Trigger Warning: This article mentions suicide.
Tuesday Vargas opened up about the lowest point in her life and how her faith ultimately saved her.
In an interview with Karen Davila for the latter's latest YouTube vlog, Tuesday revealed that her darkest moment came in 2023.
"The lowest, I think it was two years ago when I tried to off myself and end everything. It was lowest I consider because 'yung presence ng hope wala na siya, parang there's nothing more I could do," she recalled.
When asked what drove her to that point, Tuesday said it stemmed from deep betrayal and financial deception. "Financially there was somebody who took away a lot of things from me, who deceived me and made me feel a certain way, [a lover]... Sometimes friends, people I considered friends, they duped me in businesses, investments, all of that."
She went on: "That makes me sad the most. It's the trust that I gave these people. And aside from that, they know that I was struggling to begin with. I had money yes, but I had a lot of other things that I was going through, may anak ako na nakaasa sa akin, and for you do that to me knowing full well what hurt me, what pains me."
Tuesday said that at her lowest moment, it was her faith that saved her. She recalled feeling the presence of the Lord just as she was about to give up.
"My faith was restored because somebody pulled me from that ledge that day. That presence po talaga na 'yung beam ng ilaw eh gumanun sa mukha ko, ang cloudy cloudy, biglang umaraw for the last time. Naramdaman ko na may mainit na dumadaloy. Somebody said to me, that was the Holy Spirit that came. Sabi ko talaga sa sarili ko, bakit ako hindi pa pinapatapos sa laban ko? Siguro meron pa akong ibang bagay na kailangang gawin," she recounted.
She added that it was one of the few moments in a long time that she clearly felt the Lord speaking to her: "That was one of the few moments in along time that I heard the Lord na sabi niya: 'Huwag. Kailangan ka pa ng mundo. Meron pa tayong gagawin," she revealed.
Tuesday admitted she regrets almost ending her life. "Nagsisi ako kasi nakita ko 'yung mukha ng anak ko, ng nanay ko, ng mga fans ko... Paano na sila?" she remarked.
The comedienne emphasized that rather than giving up, it's braver to face one's struggles and rise again. "I think it's braver for you to admit that you made a mistake, and that you were vulnerable at a certain time and you have the ability, the capacity to turn things around," she stated.
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